Getting Lil' Gal Back

Kathryn / I don't feel like Lil' Gal any more, I feel like chubby gal. This time last year I was insanely proud about maintaining my weight, a healthy weight and not having to dress to work around my weight. I WAS SEXY!!! I was genuinely happy with that aspect of my life. In the past year my life has once again become stressful and hard to maintain, I'm not saying that's an excuse but I do feel like when "shit hits the fan" I stop feeling optimistic and that has reflected in my waste line. With that I've gained back the weight I said I never would again.

I don't want this to be a dirty retrospection. I want it to be a catalogue of growth. You and I will see how I've taken nothing and made it something yet again. I want to live in a happy, healthy environment. I want to care again.

I met Alex and was (still am) totally in love and wasn't as self conscience about my body. Everyone has fears, but I felt so much more readily comfortable. I can't even fathom that openness any more. I'm grateful that he loves me for who I am, through all of the changes I've gone through physically. That said, I want what I feel on the inside to be reflected on my outside. To be what I have been, and know I can be again. This journey is about liking who I am, so that I have even more time to share my love with the people in my life.

I don't want to sit here and list my stats about where I am now and progressing daily. I don't think that's important. The idea of this blog is to morally support each other through huge changes that at times will seem devastating. This is going to rock our worlds. I'm so very happy to be teamed with one of the greatest people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. Captain Kirk. Love you long time sister!

I recently stopped smoking and drinking like a fish. I've been making big changes and this is the final step to being a happy, young healthy individual. The clarity I've found in those first two decisions has been incredible. I'm exhilarated to find out what this next move has in store for me. Your love and support is appreciated.